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Notice: The "evoking" period of the Godform Cycle is over and we are now in the "writing and sharing of results" period. For those of you who would be interested in producing a collective PDF of everyone's experiences, please say so and we'll get things organized.

Such an awesome read !   Thanks for bringing that back here.

That's a good point, Red Blossom.  Food for thought.

Most certainly is motivating !  :D

This sounds awesome!


What happens if more than 7 people show up ?

334 as of now.  Nice that it's growing!

Ok.  So, Zalty !


The mood was much different.  The lighting was brighter and the atmosphere lighter in general.






I guess I really shouldn't have made the lighting so bright.  It changed the mood quite a bit and gave the ritual a feeling of "standardness" to it.  I missed my "spooky" atmosphere that I was able to generate for the previous rituals.  Although at the time, I couldn't figure out what it was that made the scrying "strange".


And yes it was strange.  I said in the beginning that I wasn't going to share my scryings until the end where I would re-analyze them, but I will share this : a series of anthopomorphic animals.  I don't know why, but it all made me think of the decor in Alice in Wonderland.


One thing for certain.  Next ritual I'm back to candles and dark lighting.

Apologies for being so behind in my writing.  Time for me to post an update!

First, what happened with Trigag:

(As you can clearly see, I used the Stephen Branch alternative Trigag Sigil.)




I did the invocation late in the week.  A friend of mine, a talented astrologist, had told me to watch out for bad stuff at work on March 24.  Boy was she ever right.  I mean a whole truckload of shit fucked me sideways on that day.  I was in a pretty bad/dark mood already that day.  I was already in a mood for revenge.

As can be seen on the altar pics, in addition of my regular solve/coagula nail and screw, I have two more rusty nails.  Those two additional nails are the ones I used for my vengeful / spiteful magicks.

I did the Ellis Banishing, the Khaos Transvocation, and when I got to the Trigag Invocation, it felt almost like a natural continuation of the prior transvocation.  As if Khaos and Trigag are of the same breath in some way. 

The Scrying was an incrediby strange experience.  All I got was "Trigag is Smiling."  What I saw was basically the Trigag Sigil, with a smile.  The whole thing felt as if the chaotic emotions were well attuned to the ritual.  Or at least, I apparently had the correct attitude to deal with my own inner hell.



For some strange reason I couldn't scry much further and was really "invited" to write anything on paper.  (When I scry I always have a pen and paper beside me.)  Instead I started doing all sorts of automatic writings on my whiteboard, erasing them as I went along.  In the end, this was all that was left : the only writing I got "permission" to keep.  The rest was, most probably meant more from my subconsciouss than for my waking life.

So in the end I got this:

Quod Vivum Vivas
Ave Khaos
Ave Nox

Fiat Nigredo
Fiat Nigri Solis Internum
Fiat Mors

LORFF
FIAT NOX

At some point near the end of the ritual, I took my vindicative nails and used them to channel my rage and my pain into an appropriate target.  It felt good to release some of that. 


Then I banished with the Ellisian Banishing and went to bed, exhausted.

In a sense, people can say that this is how culture has evolved.  A self-feeding loop, where order and control is continuously rewarded and reinforced.  There is also the fact that success through order and control takes less mental energy than to actually grow up and have an intelligent society.  The Less Evolved population who can't think in higher terms of order and control will always be in greater number than the more evolved population, and hence benifit the advantage of strenth in numbers.


Collective evolution is a slow difficult and tedious process, and it's rather easy to get dragged back down again.

Ok so I know INO was last week and I haven't done Trigag yet, but my INO working was all WTF IS HAPPENING and I'll be doing Trigag shortly.


Notable points :


Ino did NOT want me to finish with a banishing.  Ino did NOT want me to scry / write down anything coherent.


It was wierd and not so sure very healthy.


The Khaos Transvocation went quite well, though !  (Not sure that is healthy either, hehe.)


Without further ado, my altar pics.  (Because it's fun to post these!)




I really like how the horizontal reflection came out in this one.  I don't know why it is, but it's nice.





And this last one, though not as nice, which gives a better view of my temple:

So this week is Doombringer!  I did my ritual last night.  I took 2 pictures, but not sure which one is the best:







As you can see, the altar setup is very similar to my Ellis working, as I'm trying to maintain a standard or a similarity between rituals.  I put on my Discordian Lab Coat for the rite (of course).


So I had had a particularly shitty day at work, and concentration was rather more difficult.


The first Ellisian Banishing went rather well, and I'm glad I practiced it.


The Transvocation to Khaos was nowhere near as intense as the first time, which had genuinely surprised me, though it still felt effective.  I think I'm going to need a better paper to read it from, or maybe even put on my glasses next time.  I stuttered a bit during the reading and did not like it very much.


It was then the actual Invocation of The Doombringer that went really well.  The wording was rather awkward at first but as soon as the Sacrament was taken and the final mantra recited, something inside the center of my torso "happened" - I felt tears roll down my cheeks that "something changed" and that there was something in the past of which I have to let go.


The divination was fruitful, many symbols which I will compile and try to analyse later on.


When I did the final Ellisian Banishing ritual, all of the imagery was so vivid!  It's as if my visualisation ability and technique was doubled!  In that tiny ritual, I learned a lot about it and now appreciate it even more.  Lots of red in my mind, now.


Once the formal part of the operation was finished, it didn't end there!  I still felt the presence of 663 radiating inside of me - and, let's admit it, the sacrament too - and was compelled to pick up my copy of The Field Manual for the Strange Psyche to read the invocation written there.  I copied it here for posterity's sake.

I am the one, the one and only;
I am everything, and everything is nothing.
Behold the truth, and behold the light
and behold as I destroy it all!
I am the one, the one and only;
I am everything, and everything is nothing.
I am truth, and I am lies
I am the end of it all!
IA DOOMBRINGER! AWAKEN KHAOS!
(Repeat last part until satisfied.)


The next thing that happend was extensively strange.  It felt as if this working was interfering with another previous working.  In January, I had undertaken a 14-day Transvocation taken from Chumbley's Dragon Book of Essex.  The effects were quite palpable and have been felt ever since.  Because of this - there was seemingly interference.  Something between the 'dragon' part of me and the 'centeral chakra-thingie' in the center.  At that point I just zonked out into trance.  Conversing with both Doombringer and Azhdeha.  I was in a world of dream, conciliating the two magical influences together, integrating them together, and trying to make something whole.  Maybe I should have compartamentalized?  In the end they both melted into each other.  A little something in my heart felt oh so good and liberated. 

The 'protection' of the Discordian Lab Coat was no longer necessary at that point and the next thing I knew I was getting ready to go to sleep.  I didn't sleep right away, though, I was far away in trance land, in my now motionless body, under the warm covers, immersed in visions.


I woke up early, feeling particularly well rested and stronger emotionally.

Kiki : I suggested to move the Godforms board to the DKMU vault because it feels more like "core" DKMU theory and hence seems better paired with Oistars board.

I think it's an awesome restructure plan. 


Only relevant suggestion: I'd put the Godforms in the DKMU Vault. 


I really, really like the FNORD board.  Should we add a Discordian sub-board too, just for the lulz ? 



Perhaps the "DKMU Vault" could be renamed to "Domus Kaotica - House of Chaos" ?  (Not sure about this...)


Cheers!

Thank you for sharing, I truly enjoyed reading your account and definitely enriches my own understanding of the Red Queen.

I haven't done the Doombringer evocation this week yet, but I've been practicing the Ellisian Banishing Ritual.  Easy to memorize, but hard to understand and hence perform.  I've been doing LBRPs and Star Rubys and LSRPs which are all 4-sided that the triangular method was alien to me at first.  Now I may actually be getting a hang of it!


I think I've finally figured out the three proclamations to use in the ritual.  The first: "Hazah!  Hazah!  Zazahexazaz!" (Because double-crowley, biatche!)  The second, "Hekas!  Hekas, este bebeloi!"  (I used to do it as a starting proclamation, but it didn't feel right.  And I had previously tried the IAO vibration but it didn't feel quite right either.)  The third: "Esto."  (Been using it since the beginning, felt right since the start.)  A part of me is encouraged by the proclamation, "... and from this rite, I untie the worlds!" but it still feels a bit strange.


I've also added the circle-pointing, as done in the LBRP.  It works kind of well.